I've got the soul. Do you have the soul?

What is now?!
What is it?!

There was a sign that said: Three things that make a good date are as follows... Good looking, intelligent, emotionally stable.

Now pick two out of those because having all three doesn't exist.
If someone was to pick for me; I'm guessing it would be good looking and intelligent. This is something I don't feel ashamed for sharing. I am very emotionally unstable. I feel way too much, but what is too much? No, I don't cry if someone calls me jellybutt or whatever. Most people will probably read this and be like "woah girl this is too personal," but I'm simply reaching out to those who have the same problem. I keep saying that I've changed and a real jackass would know that change doesn't come in day. Its getting there though... I hope. I am FUCKING heartbroken. Well that felt amazing! Is that unstable enough for ya? People say don't drink when you're hurt and I say "why not?" I want to feel alive not caged like some monkey. I don't want to be poked by people and then scolded for poking back. I'm not a caged animal. If I love someone; I'm gonna love them and if I want to hit them then I will. If someone can't handle who I really am then "hit the road jack, cause this sally doesn't need to be stitched up." I'm am trying to be the best person that I can be and for some people that isn't enough anymore. I pick out my wedgies. I get jealous when a guy has naked pictures of someone else. I sometimes think I'm better than everyone else. I have flaws. Sometimes I sit and look at nothing. Then I start thinking "hmpf this isn't so bad after all." I am crazy and I just keep getting stranger. If you want a boring girl by your side by all means go to vampirefreaks and get her. This girl isn't going to be tamed anytime soon. ;) I'm not apologizing for having soul...